loves: freezy pops (who doesn't?!), his yellow fireman rain boots, Horton Hears a Who movie, helping mama cook, saying prayers before nap especially since that tends to delay the actual napping part, playing tricks, sneaking up on mama in the shower with his camera (aka his "cheese") and taking pictures while shouting "HINEY! HINEY!"
hates: having the water poured over his head while in the tub, going with out a shirt (although he will rock a pants-less outfit from time to time), leaving "Pop's house"
Boden: 10 weeks 6 days
loves: boobs, pooping, smiling at mama and dada, hearing his brothers voice
hates: reflux
I've been getting the chills lately. For no reason I'll just start to shiver out of nowhere. It lasts for less than one second and it always brings an unplanned smile to my face. It happens often enough for me to notice somethings going on. No I don't think there is some kind of weird medical issue. I really think it's waves of happiness. After having Bo, the hormonal mess I am during pregnancy continued. They are still there, the hormones, but they seem to be relatively under control. I feel less crazy. I feel closer to what normal feels like. I feel happy. For the last few weeks, months even, I don't think I've really appreciated all I have. And since Bo was born, I've been wrapped up in all the craziness that comes with staying home with a two year old boy and a newborn baby. Don't get me wrong, that craziness is still here. I refer to our house as "crazy town" all the time and I think it's fairly accurate. Even with a baby as chill as Bo, it's still a lot to manage. Especially when I'm trying to keep up with my photography business. And for a while I assumed it was my just not being able to handle it. But I realize that there's nothing wrong with me. It just really is hard. And I'll figure it out whenever I figure it out, or maybe I won't at all, but either way, we'll all be fine. We'll all still laugh at Sam and smile at Bo and cheers our grilled cheese sandwiches with friends and clap and say "YEAH YEAH YEAH!!!" when we pull into Grandma and Grandpa's driveway or talk to GiGi on the phone. Even on a hard day, there are still 1,000 opportunities to smile and laugh with Sam and Bo around. It doesn't get much better than that.
So the chills. I think it really is happiness. It's that feeling of overwhelming love. They happen because it's either that or uncontrollably shouting at the top of my lungs "Holy crap I love these boys!" And if I shout, then Sam shouts, and since we already live in crazy town I'd like to not make it any crazier if I can help it.
So here's to chills. Here's to shouting. Here's to crazy town.
Cheers.
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| Maija. Sam. |
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| Sam and Maija making out. Again. |
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| Sam loves to pick the pears from our tree. |
